Getting Too Attached Too Quickly

In November I met Joe on Scruff. Initially, I wasn’t terribly drawn to him, but I read his profile, and the more I read about him, the more appealing he seemed to me: we both have kids, we both live in old farmhouses, he has a real job, and seemed very witty and interesting. I

Where Sex Is Holy…and Slutty

Today is a very special day for me. One year ago, I first touched a man in a sexual way. (If you want to read about it, the post is called “Great Expectations”) In my inner monologue, I have been calling today my “dickiversary“ 🤣🤦🏻‍♂️🍆. I have this thing about commemorating special days. Thinking about

When you realize you don’t WANT to go back to before

This morning I was having a very unexceptional, typical morning in my new life. I woke up in my studio, just across the driveway from the building that I used to call my home (in which my ex and my children still reside). I was eating breakfast, getting dressed, just going through the morning routine.

Visiting Roger’s Neighborhood

[This post was previously posted in Nov 2021. I took it down for a minute, and then put it back up.] I met Roger on Scruff; about two weeks ago he reached out to me. I checked out his profile, and he seemed like an interesting guy, so we got to chatting. He’s a very

My Sudden Weakness: Troy

I met Troy about a month ago. He lives in the town next-door, which is quite politically conservative (read: redneck). He organized a Pride run during the month of June, but he didn’t actually know very many gay people in the area. So he posted it on Facebook, told all his straight friends, and hoped

Coming Out on Facebook

Well, I did it, last Monday I made an extremely lengthy post on Facebook (and Instagram) in which I came out to the world at large. It’s been several months since Anne and I ended our marriage and I have been feeling pretty stable in this new way of life for a couple of months

Losing My V-Card or My Anus Is Not a Trap Door

Well, I crossed an important barrier in my developmental process as a gay man: I bottomed for the first time last. Two months ago, I wasn’t even sure if bottoming was going to be something that I was interested in doing. Historically, I have felt very insecure about anything involving the anus [For fear that

My First Hook-up or “How To Avoid Suffocating In a Man’s Crotch”

I met Sean on Scruff last week. He had a really warm smile in his profile photo, and I’m a sucker for a great smile. He’s definitely a bear. He’s thick, but not fat. I felt like I was ready to have a hook up with a guy. I officially now have two FWB‘s, and

A Little Hug From God

The day that I told my kids I’m gay I experienced a really nice little God hug. Earlier in the day I was at a local library killing a bit of time. I was feeling very sad and wanted to find a quiet corner to be alone and cry. I walked the perimeter of the

How to stop hiding from yourself

Last night I watched an episode of Schitt’s Creek. It’s not a show that I watch super often, but I was in the mood for it last night. By coincidence, it happened to be the very first episode where David kisses his boyfriend. It felt really fitting that that was the episode that I saw,